Car crash 2 gone, no survivors
One Suicide
2 separate continents
2 separate messages back to back
Numb
Floating in limbo
In a fraction of a second everything can change
Impact as if
A concrete wall
A soul wrenched in excruciating pain
Lives gone, life continues
In limbo
Shock and speechless
Outpour of love and kindness
Wanting to retreat from the world
Chatty me, side stepping emotions, only to end up in yuk, fuck this, not my wisest move should not have gone there, left feeling stupid but overshadowed by
Just as it should be
But was stupid on my part, what was I thinking, just cause something heavy is brought up doesn’t mean I have to run with it and anyway who bring more heavy to the table under these circumstances. No control, no power not mine to contend with
My plate is full
Retreat
Retreat
Retreat
I glance over at the loving gentle kind compassionate comments and feel as if I am blanketed with tenderness, bitter sweet
Wanting to be held, to break down but fear my own vulnerability and cannot force the tears
Knowing they will come, they will run down my face
My heart aches
Wisest in my tiny mind
Paint the portrait a mother and son
A son who is no longer
Gunned down, shot in the back
My heartbreaks
Unto the canvas I pour my tears.
BorderLine Productions 
Know that all my strength…love…hope & forgivness is with you..surrounding you with a giant healing hug & as my spirit whispers in your ear..’you are never alone’ remember that …”you are The Phoenix…you will soar once again..stronger & more vibrant than before to honor those that have transitioned & to heal your soul” #siStar love
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Hi Shelley, sorry for the delay, I’m still learning how to do this reply thing on here with the memory of a tic, each time feels like a brand new first time, kinda like groundhog day lol. love your comment, thanks so much #siStar
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