So often folks have an abundance of wonderful suggestions on how to slow down, be still, be in the moment, calmness. The more I tried it seemed the more I got frustrated but the more I learned along the way. At times especially in the beginning I ended up feeling as if there must be something wrong with me, you know that feeling? As if being defective well that was me. I tried soaking in a hot tub nope, I tried mediation tapes what a struggle that was, I tried concentrating and I even tried yoga. I think it was during the yoga I discovered an element of truth that was running interference. For me, I couldn’t handle being still & present in my own body. Once it was suggested I sit for 5 minutes quietly. I had to sit on my hands, I watched the lock in anticipation like watching and waiting for the kettle to boil. I last under 3 minutes which felt like an eternity. I had to stop grasp at all the suggestions though during all my attempts I did learn a lot about myself and I discovered I’m not a light switch that can go from busy to zen at the flick of a switch. I had to be gentle with myself. There’s nothing quite like trying to force cram a little calmness into ones day. I had to look at what was in my way, what was stopping me from getting to where I wanted & needed to be, in search of peace & calm. I learned that adding more stuff such as getting relaxed was really only adding to my list of things to do, it was to much forcing the issue. I found that removing some obstacles and getting out of my own way slotted some room and space to give me a chance at achieving. I started within my home as for me it’s my safe place, I also extended that into nature. I started with accepting & xherishing a single moment which left me wanting more. Guess what with time & effort, I got more & im loving it
Peace & calmess to all
In search of balance & drumming to my own beat when able & need be
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